I'm just gonna dump the contents of my brain right here and go into it more later...
codependency or commitment
reaching for support vs cutting off all support
turning to God or blaming God
leap of faith into hard marriage work or leap of faith into divorce and personal work
get a degree that would produce the best financial results or get a degree that I can use to make a difference in the world
kick him out or further separate at home
be vulnerable with him or block him out
apologize for something I didn't do to smooth family relations over or stand up for me and not hate myself at the end of the day